Two months old, he looks up at you
How his smile melts your heart
You want to say, “Stop, time”
Don’t move on
Even as you watch that look is gone
Then he’s two, such a little man
So alive and so smart
Again you say, “Stop, time”
Stay just this way
But the future comes and he can’t stay
Nobody warns you of this parent’s paradox
You want your kid to change and grow
But when he does, another child you’ve just begun to know
Leaves forever
Birthdays fly – 7, 8, 9, 10
Every kid he becomes you clutch and say “Stop, time”
Hold this one fast
But it’s not supposed to last
And that time has come and passed
For he’s growing
And he has to go

— Big the Musical

This part: “another child you’ve just begun to know leaves forever”. Oh man. That’s brutal. And it’s one of the things that panics me as a mom. Am I committing to memory every detail, every expression, every mispronounced syllable? Am I smiling enough at the treasures I find in his pockets when I do laundry? Am I answering every “Mommy, why…?” with patience and appreciation for his (relentless!) curiosity?

I have no idea.

Did I do everything I could to get to know my feisty four year old? Because he’s gone forever. A fearless five year old has taken his place. And I have 525,600 minutes with him before a sassy six year old will wake up in that bunkbed across the hall. Here’s to loving every single one of those minutes with this boy.

Buddy, today is your day. Today, you’re five. You are my absolute favorite thing about this life and it just overwhelms me that you’ve already been walking, talking, and making a mess for five whole years. One day either your stubbornness or your giggle will bring world peace. I’m counting on it.

[typography font=”Copse” size=”24″ size_format=”px” color=”#8c0510″]A boy is truth with dirt on his face, beauty with a cut on his finger, and the hope of the future with a frog in his pocket.[/typography]

Happy 5th Birthday, Colt! from Sarah Hood on Vimeo.

4 thoughts on “Happy Birthday, Buddy.

  1. There is absolutely no watching that without crying!! But they are tears of love and joy and awe at what a precious, precious boy he is. So blessed that we got to share some of the special, everyday, ordinary moments of the last year with you guys. Here’s to the fun of the year ahead!!

    1. Amanda! Me too! Your family has been so special to us — and such a sweet presence in his life. Can’t wait for more!

  2. I always LOVE his birthday videos. Something he will cherish when he’s older. You’re really good at documenting all the moments in his life. I feel like I’ve watched him grow up, and in reality, I’ve seen him a total of four times in five years. :) P.S. Four was my favorite age when Erin was little. Now, oddly, she’s 15 and just got her driver’s license though to me it seems like she was just 5 last year.

  3. 15?? What??

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