I talk to myself in the car. Sometimes I say things out loud in there that I would never dream of saying to anyone in real life, but I'm just curious. How would it sound if I did? More often, I rehearse things I actually DO plan to say to someone. That day or someday. I try different words, different introductions, different levels of volume and emphasis.

When I found out I was pregnant, Jeff and I agreed on a name right away and never changed our minds. We also never told anyone his name until the day he was born. But I used to say it out loud to myself in the car just to try it out. I would pretend he was in the backseat. I would pretend I had just picked him up from school or soccer, and I would ask him about his day. And he would tell me.

I couldn't say his name out loud nearly anywhere else in order to keep our secret, but I could get a taste for it as I drove back and forth to work every day or running errands on the weekends. I said "Colt" out loud in the car too many times to count. And I liked it more and more every time.

Lately, we've been having those conversations in the car. He's in the backseat. I've just picked him up from school, and I ask him about his day.

And he tells me.

And until today I don't think I realized how much it would mean to me when the time finally came to actually have that conversation I had practiced so much back then. I didn't realize how special it would be when throwing a "Colt Buddy, did you have fun today?" into the backseat would actually get a response.

So it seems I'll be doing less talking to myself in the car from now on. But I'll manage. While I'll have to find a different rehearsal studio for all my hypothetical conversations, I'm happy to trade them for the actual, authentic, priceless conversations that will be taking their place.

4 thoughts on “Listening

  1. Yes, because they say some interesting stuff that gives you an idea of how they think!! :) (And I used to say our chosen name out loud in the car, too, when nobody was listening!) Stopping by from SITS!

  2. Yes, I have a 3 year old who asks me several times during a car ride to “please turn down the radio so we can talk”…somedays I have to remind myself that one day, she may not want to talk to me, so I better listen now!!

    visiting from SITS
    Angie @ http://inmysparetime2.blogspot.com and http://thesheltons4.blogspot.com

  3. Oh, I love this! I’m sure it will be an amazing day when my baby finally talks back to me in the car!

    Thanks for stopping by my blog during my SITS weekend!

  4. Recently my husband and I were just talking about this…

    I had lots of conversations with her while I was pregnant – mostly in my head. Now I have a one sided conversation that may or may not be met with smiles and coos.

    My hubby said something along the lines of he is amazed that someday he’ll have a real conversation with our daughter. :)

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